The Tranquility of a Blank Screen

 

After a weird night and a rough morning, I’m finally back to the tranquility of staring at a blank screen. For some writers that may seem like a daunting task. But after a morning of funky dreams and chasing “ghosts in the machine”. I’m more than ready to create something out of nothing. Now that I know the probable cause for why my phone and laptop are acting up. I now have an actionable plan that I’ll use later. It’s the unknown that often runs a thousand scenarios in my head that causes me stress. It sometimes makes me long for the days when I simply popped a pill and numbed the stress away.

But I don’t do that now and sometimes stress comes at me like a bullet. But the isolation and relative quiet do help, although the relative calm can still give way to scrambling discomfort. So I’ve learned to except those parts of myself that are broken. Healing them through compassion and acknowledgement that they are there. Trying to ignore a problem only amounts to sweeping dirt under a rug. Where the mess may look gone, but it’s creating a lump just beneath the surface. And believe me when I say that bitch is going to trip you up someday.

To be honest I feel a little better now. The relative quiet of the outside, upstairs, and beyond the wall is most appreciated. Later on my wife and I have back to back doctor appointments. But I’m hoping to turn that trip to nothingness into a fact finding mission. So I’ll need a clear head, because I’ll have to absorb information for two instead of for just myself. But information is knowledge and for me knowledge brings peace. So take information and make it a tool, don’t be afraid of what you are going to hear. And know that stepping into the unknown is troublesome but so too is ignoring it.   

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The Tranquility of a Blank Screen