Learn To Walk


 

Done with all the usual. The vitamin gummy tastes good in my mouth after a job well done. Yesterday morning, I went to my Family NP to get an official blood pressure reading and some bloodwork done to check on my new medication and my lightheadedness. Well, the results came back, confirming her suspicions and diagnosis. So now, it’s just a waiting game and a bit more of being very careful when I move about.

I hate sounding a bit paranoid about my health, but I am. However, I do my best not to water those seeds of fear as I used to in years past. By living in the present moment, there is a certain degree of awareness concerning your health and wellness. It’s not that I don’t fear death, but I’m also not ignorant of my quality of life. So, I do my best to keep myself as healthy as I can given my current situation.

Life is about awareness and the quality of life you live. None of us want to be uncomfortable, I’m sure, but at what cost do we pursue that level of comfort? Over the past many years, I’ve learned to do without. I like to think of myself as being frugal with my money and lifestyle, but I still have my moments of deep-seated fear and worry. Even so, I feel I’m getting a better hand on it.

But still, there are others who live their lives as carefree as the wind, seemingly not giving a thought to the moment or things like their overall health. They almost seem to thrive on the pressure of being needed, like they have some hero complex that needs to be fed. Often, they use the excuse of “having the heart of a servant” to justify their selfless actions.

For a really long time, that was me. All that lifestyle got me was my current physical and mental condition and little satisfaction for my hero complex. Life is more than just being the savior; it’s being there. Some people need to fail. If we keep rescuing them, how else will they learn to walk?

#TakeCareOfYourself #HeroComplex #Caregiver #Awareness #Grace


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